Monday, October 25, 2010

are you there God?

I am looking for a new house of worship. I do not like my temple anymore. I do not like the people or the atmosphere. This sucks since I have been going there for 30 years this month. I am saddened that my community failed me when I needed them most. I can go into my closet and worship if I want to, I go to my temple to associate with devotees that have their minds on the same goal as I do, but I cant find any devotees like that at my temple anymore. Everyone is into money...money for this , money for that, you dont have any money?? then you cant take advantage of our association or programs we offer. Doesnt this directly void what Prabhupada was telling us about materialism? I mean I know the temple has bills, but you cannot tell me that 3 kids in school is really going to raise the electric bill. Isnt the fact that there are 3 little minds that need to be developed as devotees more inportant? Dont you know I would pay if I could? But my kids have to suffer because I ran into bad luck with my car, and then my husband almost died. Only one person from the temple even bothered to check on us.... I went to the Salvation Army church, the kids loved it, I was not so impressed, I do not like it when a minister yells, especially when there were only 13 of us in the room. I am going to go back to my roots this coming weekend and go back to the Greek Orthodox church and see if now that the creepiest Father Nick is gone if things are better there. At least I have some people waiting there to welcome me....I just hope God is one of them. I have such a hard time finding the presence of the Lord in these so called houses of worship, I know He isnt at Kalachandji's anymore... He has been chased out by the money grubbers and the false devotees...more to come as I continue my search

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